I’m probably going to end up continuing on exactly as I please because it’s better than rotting. Even with sharing everything I feel like I’m dying of loneliness and I don’t care how dramatic that sounds.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. Despite what people on here might say (and it’s a small echo chamber) there are multitudes of other people in the world, sharing their thoughts online, and in person, and they go on living. Is there a risk “of exposure”? Yes, life inherently carries risks. Frankly I would say to a privacy maximalist to simply unplug their internet connection, lest your ip data is somehow traced back to you.

I know you mentioned not being able to afford therapy. You’re probably aware of things like sliding scale payments, and therapists who offer “life coaching” to functionally provide the same service under different billing rates (buyer beware of course).

But as someone who didn’t get into therapy until they could afford it as an adult… Have you read any helpful books lately? They might not be a perfect substitute, but in my case, they kept me going.

Good luck!

Does it even count as a mechanical keyboard if the actuation is from hall effect switches?