I’m no priest, I blame no one; I point causes. In an unequal system (capitalism), there is not the same responsibility depending of our power on the mean of production. The representation that picture fascism of the unions or anti-racist collectives exists, but are marginal. Mass media like in Hollywood, mainstream comics or how History is presented on TV has way more impact. I’m not saying that the bourgeoisie is more or less fascists than other classes. I’m saying that in letting their in command, we let their point view and biaises shape our representations. No judgement their, just description.

We could go further, and say the most someone is close to the ruling class, the less someone will met contradictions.

Bourgeoisie has depicted fasciscts as vilains, evil and monstruous. Now when people discovered that nazis are just humans, their are surprised. Spoiler: people could act nice, honest, and even involve in charity, and still aim to enslave or mass kill others.

Lots of neurodivergent and antifascists, and sureley around your place. Not being a fascists scum make you already priceless. Maybe their is some collective that could help you to get some distance, or at least have some break. Antifa orga, unions, sportive association, neighborhood association … Solidarity comrade.

The only communist revolution I see where most of this elements were undoubtedly true is the Spanish one. Unfortunately, it was betrayed by the stalinists.

I think we should not confuse the authority based on oppression, and those based on expertise. However the last one could be justified in front of the community (like the Union), so I would use the word “hierarchical”; the trust we gave in those people is freely agreed between equals.