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Don’t use Voyager that often, but you’re currently +4

Diagnosed BIpolar 1, mostly depressive, but sometimes manic.

I am deathly afraid of the manic episodes that I’ve got some fear of “being too happy”. I’d rather deal with the lows (even the lowest of the low) because at least with those, I can trust myself to lack the energy to be destructive. I am fairly confident that in my lowest, I won’t even have the energy to commit suicide even if I want to.

Mania is a very different beast altogether. It might manifest on a spectrum from “just too wired up for sleep” to, in a couple of really badly unmanaged episodes, going off to an entirely different part of the country on a whim just because “who cares, I’m dying anyways?” Only through sheer luck did I manage to get home safe both times.

That said, honest self-awareness, honesty to the mental health professionals, and sticking to the treatment plan could make it manageable. It’s no guarantee, but it helps.

It also helps to manage expectations: the treatment won’t be on target especially on the first states, while the doctors adjust the medication and the dosage, deal with the side effects, etc. Some kind of faith in the process is necessary, I think–not blind trust, but trust that if you inform the doctors honestly any effects (side effects or not) to the best of your abilities, then the doctors can manage the condition better than if you think “I feel fine, the meds aren’t needed anymore!”

The treatment–the management of the condition is likely to last until the very end, and that’s fine.

About being in a relationship? It’s really up to the person and their partner: I wouldn’t trust myself to go on in a relationship without at least informing my partner about it–and keeping them up to date with “my mood weather report”. However it probably takes experience, a few cycles to get used to it.

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I tried Zen for a while during the peak of its hype, and it’s fine. It’s too “Apple” for my taste though, with limited UI customization. It’s opinionated, and I quite like the overall look, but it just felt off to me. It’s nice to look at, but a bit off to use.

Oh, the name and the icon are probably the only things I am actually displeased with in Floorp. I wanted to change the icon for my system too (or just use a more generic “firefox fork browser” logo for it to contrast with my ungoogled Chromium one–but I abandoned it after finding it troublesome (skill issue on my end).

But hey, beyond the icon and the iffy name, it fits my needs, so it stays.

I actually had this trajectory: Vanilla Firefox -> (manually) hardened Firefox -> Librewolf -> Floorp

I wasn’t actually displeased with Librewolf, but I found it a bit sparse when it comes to customization. I am aware that I’m trading customization with security when I made the last jump, but given my opsec situation, I don’t think I am being careless with switching to Floorp, and it has some decent security defaults, so I stuck with it.

Everyone else’s usecases may vary and even Floorp with its customization options isn’t for everyone. That’s the beauty of Firefox and its forks, if you ask me. There’s likely something for everyone–and for some, Firefox might be it.

No one mentioned Floorp yet, so I guess it’s on me.

It’s Firefox, but with more customization options right out of the box. I also have an ungoogled Chromium on standby for those sites unwilling to work well with Firefox (and forks).

EDIT:

Oh, it’s mentioned in the OP:

• Floorp: A random find from exploring Linux for the first time. I was running Pop!_OS and found it on the store. I’ve never experienced such a smooth Firefox fork before. It really is barebones, but has a lot of customization built in. Instead of the custom options piling on one another, most of them change how it works on a foundational level. The style of your UI and tabs, side tabs, fading URL bar buttons, and a lot more. At it’s core, Floorp is a stripped down and security first FF fork developed in Japan. I took the time to translate the TOS pages, and most of it is promising that there is no data collection. It’s fairly vetted and trusted from what I’ve researched.

I was thinking of those composite names too, like Juan Miguel Archangel (John Michael Archangel) but the person having such a name would just choose at most two and would introduce themselves as John, or Michael, or Miguel.

And it only gives you the votes you give while using Voyager. If you’re using Lemmy via other platforms (like desktop/laptop) or other apps, of course it won’t give you the full picture.

Can’t remember exactly why I put a profile picture here, but I guess I was thinking “oh, someone might use the same username I use in some other instance, so I guess I’ll put something to differentiate.”

Whether or not that actually hurts my own statement, I’ll leave it for the others to decide. I think posting/comment volume + striking username (and profile picture) + unique voice = recognizability. I think only have one of three, so… IDK!

I don’t think I’ve done anything that would warrant that, but thanks!

Pakalat-kalat lang ako. Kung saan lang mapagtripan. 😅

Bihira lang din akong magpost kasi madalas wala rin naman akong masabi o maidagdag.

I’m just hanging around at random places. Wherever my fancy takes me.

I rarely post too, since I rarely have anything to say or add.

Thanks…?

Let’s see when we meet each other in some other corner of Lemmy.

Oh, I use that too on my mobile app (Voyager). I am starting to think that once the total votes reach some threshold, either I’d encounter them consistently dishing out hot takes, or I’m primed to think their take is hot and spicy.

For some of the really prolific posters, yes. But there are also lurkers like me.

I doubt anyone can recognize me when I comment or encounter a comment I made.

I am curious about the reactions in the thread linked in the OP, but I can’t access it. I don’t know if the thread is deleted either since I can’t access even the server.

Are they temporarily down?

EDIT:

False alarm. I was able to access it after some struggle. I don’t know why I can’t access it in my desktop but I was able to access it via mobile. At any rate, it’s a problem on my end.

Reading the linked post, I’m glad to note that it seems to me that the consensus is largely against the change. Even the few comments from those in the instance is pretty much against it.

I love bread crust, but I can understand why people might not like them. It occupies a middle ground between “bread” and toast. It has some earthy flavor (that I like in toasted bread), but it is also softer than toast (which I can appreciate).

Thus, I think it might be the “worst of both worlds” for some people: too soft, tasting off, etc.

I love them all though: pizza crust, bread crust, toasted bread, toasted pizza crust, toasted bread crust.

I’ll try to send text to the very beginning of the seven-day period, sending each message on two-hour intervals sent to the point in time one second after the last message.

Let’s assume that the seven-day period starts on 2025-05-12 08:00:00.

• The first message will be sent two hours after the seven day period starts, and every two hours thereafter. This first message will be sent on 2025-05-12 10:00:00 and will include:

  1. the timespace-stamp of when and where the message is sent. the time part of this would be written in way that only I can encode and decipher.
  2. all the rules as I understand it so far
  3. what I’ve done from the the start of the seven-day period.
  4. something only I know that will convince myself that I indeed sent the message from the future

• The messages will be sent to the time one second after the previous message was sent. Hence, continuing the example, the next message would be sent on 2025-05-12 12:00:00 to 2025-05-12 08:00:02, and so on.

• The messages will follow the same format as the first one:

  1. timespace-stamp (when and where I sent the message from), the time portion written in the same code as the first one.
  2. any updates to my knowledge of the rules
  3. where I’ve been and what I did since the last message
  4. something only I know, and will reassure myself that the message is indeed from me

• If for some reason I am unable to send any messages (for example, I have been asleep, or out of network coverage area) when I should (two hours have passed since the last message), I will send a message immediately when I’m able. This message will be sent to the time one second after the last sent message. So continuing the example, if the last message was sent on 2025-05-12 22:00:00, to 2025-05-12 08:00:07, and I’m asleep until 2025-05-13 09:00:00, I will immediately send a message to 2025-05-12 08:00:08.

With this, assuming I survive for seven days (exactly) and stay awake the entire time, I will receive the last message before 2025-05-12 08:01:24. The timestamps of the last message will also give me a good indication if I survived the seven days, or how long I survived. If I continue receiving messages past that, maybe my future self messed up, or there’s something more going on, or my future self just decided it’s a good idea to just continue. Nevertheless, I have advance notice of what happens to me.

Of course I will try not to lose my phone. With advance notice, I will try to stay as safe as possible without deviating much from the timeline. Also, I will try to figure out what’s going on, but only up to the point that I can keep myself safe.

And the other way is distasteful too! Going around helping people because you want to “fish for friends”? Yeah, you could do worse things, I suppose, but still pretty icky.

Some people though, they can be pretty classy about it and if done that way, and no one is harmed, why not?

attach yourself (politely) to the person who comes to help

This probably explains some of the interactions I’ve had when all I wanted to do is to help someone in need. Not in the gym, but mostly in the streets. Like someone getting lost, and offering to show them the way. Or offering my seat to the elderly.

But really, being helpful sometimes is all it takes for give someone the reason to talk to you (and vice versa). Not that I managed to be in a relationship with this kind of a start.