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I fed the cable through a hole in the wall, not that it matters since the door doesn’t shut all the way. The building is old and the frame doesn’t match the door shape anymore.

It was easy to feed the line because, well, the monitor is in the hole too. It’s a big hole. Honestly, it’s kind of embarrassing. A mouse infestation took out the supports and drywall around an exhaust vent/air conditioner wall-unit thing and it fell out of the wall. Plus the landlord is a slum lord.

I can’t really do a current picture for complicated phone reasons/problems. Just imagine a monitor in this hole, instead of the portal to Narnia which I lovingly crafted in GIMP: https://i.imgur.com/BLHhUF0.gif

The monitor is in that, mostly held in with spray foam and duct tape. My rent is $325 a month, no contract, no late fees up to 3 months. My landlord is a slumlord. IDK, I feel that might help explain things around here.

I do the same with “we”. Someone will say something like “How did we get so casual about conspiracy theories?” and my first thought is “Who is ‘we’? Do you have a mouse in your pocket?” because I personally don’t feel like I am casual about conspiracy theories. It doesn’t matter if that’s accurate or not. When someone uses “we” like that, they are speaking for others in a way that might not be true and in my opinion that’s a manipulative way to trick some people to think incorrectly and excludes the possibility that other people might think in a different way. I don’t like when others speak on my behalf, I am not part of their “we” world.

The first one gave me some hope in humanity. The second one took some away. I think I’m more cautious now with people but at the same time I try to be forgiving more, just in case. I don’t like to brag about my good deeds I’ve done, since I believe some people see that as a form of weakness and will target people who appear nice. Sometimes it can be hard to be uncaring however. Overall I’d say they didn’t change much about me, they were simply a form of building experience.

I’ve had it happen to me twice surprisingly enough.

The first one was genuinely sorry and apologized to the point it was almost annoying. He actually had tears in his eyes welling up, which shocked me, as he was 6’6" (203cm) and probably 300 pounds with very little body fat, full beard, just a terrifying looking massive man. Hargid from Harry Potter. I learned later that he regularly volunteered at a local food pantry among other things and really seemed to have turned around since high school.

The other one was a guy who was friends with the first one, back in high school. He didn’t know the other guy had apologized and turned his life around. He gave a half assed apology but was only there as a friend of one of my friends and didn’t know who i was at first, not until i mentioned where i went to school casually. i could tell he didn’t really care. later that week he waited outside my apartment for me to leave for work, broke in, stole a guitar and an amp, then pawned them for heroin money. i only learned who it was that broke in after my friend who brought the guy, found out and apologized for bringing him over.

It’s a weird world sometimes. never know how people will turn out.

My eeepc sadly died last year, it was a single core laptop i had running hannah montana linux in my bathroom as a music player.

My Precision M6400, a dual core made in 2008, is still going strong and sure, it’s slow, but it still works and has replaced the eeepc in the bathroom so now I can listen to music OR watch videos (not streaming) during my extra long showers. i don’t keep it in the bathroom, it’s on a dock in another room connected to a monitor with a really long dvi-i cable.

I recommend against searching for people to ‘make amends’ for a few reasons.

They might not remember it. Your attempt could trigger forgotten old memories, causing them stress you don’t intend.

They might not forgive you. Are you prepared to handle that? You make a gesture of good faith and they reject it, how to you react? That’s a rhetorical question, don’t actually answer it because no one knows exactly how they will react, it’s just something to consider and reflect on.

Trying to make amends would be you, trying to seek resolution to a conflict created by you, hoping for someone else to forgive you. Notice a pattern there? It would be you making things about you, which might be seen as a selfish humble brag or some may think it is part of a scam of some kind and trust you less.

It might turn out that the people you seek out have turned as bad as you once were, or perhaps they always were and you never noticed. Your efforts would be wasted on them.

That brings me to my suggestion. Move forward. Learn from your past mistakes to prepare for a better tomorrow. Do good things now, try to find ways to do it without getting any attention for it.

Don’t make your good deeds a badge to wear because then it loses its significance. An anonymous kind stranger is better than a politician donating to a fake charity, if that makes sense.

If you happen to run into someone you once bullied, apologize sincerely. If they seem down on their luck, ask if you can help in any way but don’t put pressure on them. You wouldn’t want them to feel ashamed for receiving help, right?

From now on, try to be a positive force. Do what you can to ensure the future has less people like you once were and more people like how you hope to be.

There is a bug that is open right now which sounds like it might be one you were experiencing or possibly explains part of the issues.

https://bugs.kde.org/show_bug.cgi?id=501073

Like the web browsing might have been from middle clicking, which causes a lengthy hang and resuming from suspend and powerdevil are a prime suspect for it.

The login wait might be an issue I vaguely recall about the splash screen and that disabling it removed the startup hang.

I’ve been exclusively using Manjaro KDE since September of 2021 and the linked issue I started getting a couple months ago and it’s gotten bad enough to make me want to start hopping again.